duminică, 20 iunie 2010

55 of 56 days.

hello today i celebrated my anniversary because its Sunday and actually my birthday will be tomorrow. but because u don't feel the need to have fun on Monday we choosed to do our party today. who is my friend on Facebook can of course see some photos we took in this special day.

me 30 years old tomorrow. what is means? what an age...what a number...i don't know why but i feel like i am old and I know i am not. 30 yrs is such a beautiful time. i wish everyone has the best at this age. including me, of course. my marriage is solid as a rock, it's not about my marriage i am scared of. but i have the impression, today, at least, that i haven't really achieved yet my goals. i have a beautiful partner beside me, we have a strong relationship, we have love, passion and respect for each other.
but i am not yet satisfied of my professional life. i need to be active, i need to grow on this field. maybe it is not my time but i am sure i will definitely try my best from now on. i want to become a volunteer in the social field using this way my knowledge. in 2 weeks maybe i will begin looking for non-profit ONG whom needs volunteers.
nothing else for the moment. kisses and i wish u have the best time of your life :)

miercuri, 16 iunie 2010

52nd day of 56. 70 kilos :)

hello, i didn't have much time to write lately because my husband is at home for 3 weeks. our preferate "job" is these days going to the beach in the morning. i love it...i love summer sooo much :)
today i slept a little after we came home so in the afternoon i did some cleaning around the house including washing the carpets. at 32 degrees celsius, imagine :)

monday is my birthday. i celebrate my 30 yrs old and i know it will be a day of laughing and crying. laughing of the fact that i am old :)) but crying for not having my parents and my sister with me. maybe it is a little silly and stupid but i believe in our hearts we are all children...i'm counting on my husband to know how to make me laugh more than cry :)

starting that day we will get to work and conceive a baby. I hope Lord will give me this pleasure of becoming a mum next year. it is His choice only.

like i said before, my b*day will be also a day for praying for my friends' health and joy. i hope u will pray for me too.
kisses.

p.s.: i achieved my 5 kilos not 10 kilos weight loss goal... but i am happy and satisfied still. :)

joi, 10 iunie 2010

46th day of 56 Friends

hello everyone. today is a sunny day and my heart is thinking about friends... that i lost by my own fault, friends that God thought it's better to have, friends i lost track of because life had separated us...

my life has never been simple. everybody knows it, i don't write this to victimize myself. but it seems like there had always been an empty place i could never fill even if i tried hard. i always been difficult and i assume it.

somehow in my life entered people i considered important and i continued to struggle keeping them. in the last days i met someone by mistake whom i discovered has a beautiful soul, he loves his family as i do and he loves to give presents :)) hahaha

my life is a carusel. when i am sure of a friend it appears i am wrong than a person i don't know becomes a friend to count on...strange, a?

what else? in 10 days will be my birthday, celebrating 30 yrs old and trust me, that in that special day, i will be thinking of you, wishing you all the best and praying that we all will be okay. kisses .

duminică, 6 iunie 2010

43th day of 56.

hello everyone it's a new week i hope we all have a very lovely week with fulfilling what we aim to. i am a little sad because i took 1 kilo this last week but that is just because i kinda ate pork steak and some bad stuff to make pleasure to my husband. but i will soon lose it, i'm sure of it, as i am eating very good. sometimes we make compromises for the beloved ones and that what matters.

today i have in plan to accompany my husband inside the city for a trip of almost 100 kilometers so i am getting out of the house a little.

what else? nothing important. i am looking forward to arrive to date 21st of June to conceive my babygirl, Rebeccah-Marie or Reuben-Christian. I hope God will allow this magic in our lives.

Kisses to all...

joi, 3 iunie 2010

39th day of 56.

hello, miss u all and thanx for encouragements :) i had some busy days lately but now i am here to tell you some news.

actually nothing is new. :))

i am still trying to reach 70 kilos but i don't want to force my body to extreme again so i am just eating healthy and i drink water, at least 2,5 l per day, i still take colonhelp to detoxifiate my body. today i have been invited to a conference and after there were so many meals to choose from but for the first time in my life i choosed salad, no dressing, and water. then i took some apple, pineapple and some kiwi for dessert :) everybody was watching me because all the world there wanted steaks, french fries, cake and juices :) how strong my mind is? VERYYYYYY....:) they even didn't attracted me at all. I am sooo proud of my brain that it comes to my head the idea to congratulate myself. Crazy a?

What else? I am trying for few days to think if i should or not to talk about a subject or not. Well, it seems like i will, after all. It's about the situation in Pakistan. I have recently found out that Pakistan has banned facebook because of the muslim cartoon caricature contest that takes place in USA. Pakistan also forbids its people to use youtube too, as a sign of revolt. My opinion is that probably many people will argue with me, but it looks like the info we receive from this country are not really true. As i have friends there and they tell me that the situation is not like on TV. If somebody is for real doing a contest of cartoon with the face of Prophet Mohammed it is embarassing for all because laughing of religion is a crime itself. Even if I lost my faith in orthodox church I can't stand the fact that somebody can laugh of religion. Any religion, doesn't matter its orientation. We are free to speak and to be heard. But not by being mean to others. by this gouvernamental ban, my friends can no longer get in touch with friends, they can not be part of our lives.
On the other hand, i have come in contact with different persons from facebook that had posted racist messages and i asked them to delete the videos or commentaries if not i will inform facebook and their account will be closed for good, and so i did. I don't defend muslim or christians or judaic people, but a little respect we have to have for anyone, no matter the religion or bank account.

that was all for now. i hesitated a lot if i should or not get involved with the pakistani crise of facebook but i hope you, reading this page, understand that we are social persons and being from different parts of this world doesn't make us more important than others. I miss my friends from Pakistan, from France, from Romania, from USA...all over...kisses to all !