hello

God its been a long time since i wrote the last time on my page. :) so many things like miracles happened in my obviously boring life. but hey, I am truly convinced you are all be envious on me :)

last time i wrote was about my struggle with my weight. i wanted so badly to lose 10 kilos, i didnt make it but actually on the way there i discovered that what there was really a reason to struggle was to lose weight under the "awesome" 70 kilos. even if i lost 5 kilos, being under 70 was a huuuuuge step. so i was happy and still am :) thanx to all that been supportive and full of encouragements, it changes everything in your perspective.

the big news that I am a 10 weeks pregnant mum so this is my miracle. It is yet just a false feeling of motherhood which will probably increase when my baby will kick my belly :) for those who wonder if i feel special, if i feel like something abnormal, well, the response is NO. No, i dont feel anything unusual, but yes - i feel something rather strange than before. I feel sick, sick and sick...Nauses, morning sickness, feel like i can faint all time, so YES, I FEEL :) Lots of things...

Don't worry. I love my baby because she/he is a miracle. I met so many women lately that have tried for years to have a child and to me, it happened when i planned to have one. On the other hand, this kid is very loved because she/he is the fruit of a honest respectful love and marriage to my husband. I always wanted to have a child when i'll be 30 and I will be married for 10 years. So this is that moment forever dreamt. :)

Today I write a coming-back message. I believe it's already a lot what i confessed so welcome back, readers (i heard you're being called bloggers :)) ) and c u soon.

Kisses.

55 of 56 days.

hello today i celebrated my anniversary because its Sunday and actually my birthday will be tomorrow. but because u don't feel the need to have fun on Monday we choosed to do our party today. who is my friend on Facebook can of course see some photos we took in this special day.

me 30 years old tomorrow. what is means? what an age...what a number...i don't know why but i feel like i am old and I know i am not. 30 yrs is such a beautiful time. i wish everyone has the best at this age. including me, of course. my marriage is solid as a rock, it's not about my marriage i am scared of. but i have the impression, today, at least, that i haven't really achieved yet my goals. i have a beautiful partner beside me, we have a strong relationship, we have love, passion and respect for each other.

but i am not yet satisfied of my professional life. i need to be active, i need to grow on this field. maybe it is not my time but i am sure i will definitely try my best from now on. i want to become a volunteer in the social field using this way my knowledge. in 2 weeks maybe i will begin looking for non-profit ONG whom needs volunteers.

nothing else for the moment. kisses and i wish u have the best time of your life :)

52nd day of 56. 70 kilos :)

hello, i didn't have much time to write lately because my husband is at home for 3 weeks. our preferate "job" is these days going to the beach in the morning. i love it...i love summer sooo much :)

today i slept a little after we came home so in the afternoon i did some cleaning around the house including washing the carpets. at 32 degrees celsius, imagine :)

monday is my birthday. i celebrate my 30 yrs old and i know it will be a day of laughing and crying. laughing of the fact that i am old :)) but crying for not having my parents and my sister with me. maybe it is a little silly and stupid but i believe in our hearts we are all children...i'm counting on my husband to know how to make me laugh more than cry :)

starting that day we will get to work and conceive a baby. I hope Lord will give me this pleasure of becoming a mum next year. it is His choice only.

like i said before, my b*day will be also a day for praying for my friends' health and joy. i hope u will pray for me too.

kisses.

p.s.: i achieved my 5 kilos not 10 kilos weight loss goal... but i am happy and satisfied still. :)

46th day of 56 Friends

hello everyone. today is a sunny day and my heart is thinking about friends... that i lost by my own fault, friends that God thought it's better to have, friends i lost track of because life had separated us...

my life has never been simple. everybody knows it, i don't write this to victimize myself. but it seems like there had always been an empty place i could never fill even if i tried hard. i always been difficult and i assume it.

somehow in my life entered people i considered important and i continued to struggle keeping them. in the last days i met someone by mistake whom i discovered has a beautiful soul, he loves his family as i do and he loves to give presents :)) hahaha

my life is a carusel. when i am sure of a friend it appears i am wrong than a person i don't know becomes a friend to count on...strange, a?

what else? in 10 days will be my birthday, celebrating 30 yrs old and trust me, that in that special day, i will be thinking of you, wishing you all the best and praying that we all will be okay. kisses .

43th day of 56.

hello everyone it's a new week i hope we all have a very lovely week with fulfilling what we aim to. i am a little sad because i took 1 kilo this last week but that is just because i kinda ate pork steak and some bad stuff to make pleasure to my husband. but i will soon lose it, i'm sure of it, as i am eating very good. sometimes we make compromises for the beloved ones and that what matters.

today i have in plan to accompany my husband inside the city for a trip of almost 100 kilometers so i am getting out of the house a little.

what else? nothing important. i am looking forward to arrive to date 21st of June to conceive my babygirl, Rebeccah-Marie or Reuben-Christian. I hope God will allow this magic in our lives.

Kisses to all...

39th day of 56.

hello, miss u all and thanx for encouragements :) i had some busy days lately but now i am here to tell you some news.

actually nothing is new. :))

i am still trying to reach 70 kilos but i don't want to force my body to extreme again so i am just eating healthy and i drink water, at least 2,5 l per day, i still take colonhelp to detoxifiate my body. today i have been invited to a conference and after there were so many meals to choose from but for the first time in my life i choosed salad, no dressing, and water. then i took some apple, pineapple and some kiwi for dessert :) everybody was watching me because all the world there wanted steaks, french fries, cake and juices :) how strong my mind is? VERYYYYYY....:) they even didn't attracted me at all. I am sooo proud of my brain that it comes to my head the idea to congratulate myself. Crazy a?

What else? I am trying for few days to think if i should or not to talk about a subject or not. Well, it seems like i will, after all. It's about the situation in Pakistan. I have recently found out that Pakistan has banned facebook because of the muslim cartoon caricature contest that takes place in USA. Pakistan also forbids its people to use youtube too, as a sign of revolt. My opinion is that probably many people will argue with me, but it looks like the info we receive from this country are not really true. As i have friends there and they tell me that the situation is not like on TV. If somebody is for real doing a contest of cartoon with the face of Prophet Mohammed it is embarassing for all because laughing of religion is a crime itself. Even if I lost my faith in orthodox church I can't stand the fact that somebody can laugh of religion. Any religion, doesn't matter its orientation. We are free to speak and to be heard. But not by being mean to others. by this gouvernamental ban, my friends can no longer get in touch with friends, they can not be part of our lives.

On the other hand, i have come in contact with different persons from facebook that had posted racist messages and i asked them to delete the videos or commentaries if not i will inform facebook and their account will be closed for good, and so i did. I don't defend muslim or christians or judaic people, but a little respect we have to have for anyone, no matter the religion or bank account.

that was all for now. i hesitated a lot if i should or not get involved with the pakistani crise of facebook but i hope you, reading this page, understand that we are social persons and being from different parts of this world doesn't make us more important than others. I miss my friends from Pakistan, from France, from Romania, from USA...all over...kisses to all !

30th day of 56

hello friends, bloggers or enemies :) today is a month since I started my healthy-meal diet and I am so glad to tell you that even if I stopped for almost 2 weeks the dissociated diet (after which you can gain some kilos back), I haven't gain not even 100 gr. So my healthy meals are the key to me being healthy. I eat almost everything, together with my husband but I never eat after 18,30-19,00 because I don't do exercises in the evening. I am everyday inspired by the idea of being pregnant soon and I don't even feel the need for candies or those killers :) And I am also inspired by the fact that I read everyday interesting things from Ghe. Mencinicopschi's book "So what do we eat today?" where you can understand for real what junks we eat and we call it food. I have learned so many important things about my stomach, about my body and I know I will never return to eat those garbage foods again.

I have to dedicate this interest to my future kid, to whom I will tell I did everything possible for she/him. Being healthy before pregnancy is very important and with the ambition I can become a healthy mum.

Like a dear friend might say, Adeel, INSALLAH :))

Kisses to all.

P.S.: Tu me M-O-N-K aussi mama :))

24th day of 56.

hello, these days are under the sign of information. I read a lot, I ask a lot and I search all kind of stuff on the net. My dentist, who is a good friend of mine, borrowed me her book "Mayo Clinic: A guide to a healthy pregnancy" and it only has 613 pages about pregnancy, giving birth and newly-born care :) so imagine how busy I am.

Today I felt the need to cook a chicken-soup for my husband and tonight I am in the mood for an omelet with green-onion, tomatoes and some cheese. Not a lot for me, just to taste it :)

What else? I did cleaning, ironing, laundry, stuff around the house like every wife should do haha :)

Well, just that. Kisses.

p.s.: Kisses to my mum and sis', love ya.

22nd day of 56. 72 kilos.

hello, its a new week yee.

yesterday my husband bought me COLONHELP, a cleaner and a detoxifiant for colon, of course, it has so many indications I am so happy to have bought it. It is like a present because it is quite expensive for medium incomes (almost 37-38 euros or 150 RON) but I prefer buying in advance some herbs rather than buying pills after :) It contains 15 herbs, it is all natural and it is for almost 60 days treatment/person. You are somehow forced to drink 2 liters of water so that the herbs do their job and the spoon with the powder you put in yoghurt. So you drink some liquids :)

what else? i already started to take folic acid or B9 for pregnancy, even if I am not pregnant. No, not yet. :) It is normal for a woman who knows already when she wants to be pregnant to take in advance for her to be healthy and ready for pregnancy even from the first day of it :) so now I am :)

I am eating healthy still. Yesterday I visited some family friends and for the first time in my life I requested she no longer put vegeta on my chicken as I only put salt and pepper which are natural and nothing chemical. I only ate 2 donuts, the smallest found and trust me, you could have eaten 20 :)) but not me. hahaha.

but anyway this morning didn't start like it should as I fought a neighbor. He has almost 65 yrs old, a small car and every time he parks his car he "attacks" 2 parking spots. The fact that I saw him parking the same so many times it made me jump to the conclusion that he has no reflex for parking and he puts his car in the middle of the 2 places. I got so angry because i just moved my car from another place to have my car in front of my block and when I saw him parking this way, oh, man..i started to have hot face :) he left and I blocked his car so that he can't move the car then. When he came he looked at his car and didn't know what to do. but I was in the car, expecting for him. I jumped out and started to yell at him because he took 2 parking spots and he didn't even know what he had done. Imagine? I told him that one more time he does this, I will ask the Police to take his driving licence because he doesn't know to park so it's not normal. He got scared and said "I'm sorry"...Well, I let him go after because saying i'm sorry makes me gentle, but it won't happen again.

Anyway, I hope you all have a good week with sun and warm in your hearts and outside. Kisses.

18th day

hello. still no kilos lost but there is no problem as long as i eat healthy. i've just drunk some milk and i ate 2 sandwiches of cheese because today is dairy day.

and one important news - i've received the book of my preferate dietetician by mail so i look forward to read it. i am sure it contains all kind of information about healthy food and how to live healthy.

i will read it and i will share to u some infos.

17th day of 56. 72 kilos

hello, today i had a very busy day, i just entered the house after i was out since 8,30 am. but i did many things including visiting a good friend and meeting new persons there. i met today a lady who is so much alike :) i really had good times there.

same ol weight 72 kilos so no losing weight, but i have to be happy to not lose a lot of kilos and put back some quickly.

i haven't eaten anything yet, just drank 500 ml of water even if my friend invited me to chocolate, biscuits and juice. i said no, i'm on diet. trust me i would not have done it before :)

what else? nothing now, i will do some exercises even if i moved a lot today so i did some sport :)

16th day of 56. 3 kilos of 10

hello, today nothing new...

i drink water, i eat meat and i do my sport :)

kisses

15th day of 56. 72 kilos of 75

hi everyone. everyday is a new challenge and today is no exception. yesterday i had the right to eat whatever i wanted and to my surprise i had no interest in eating bad, that means candies, drinking coke or these kind of products. i limited myself to eat healthy even if i was allowed to get out of the shell for a day.

this is quite strange to me but I am extremely happy discovering this new side of myself. i hope i can resist all my life this way and all this effort will become a habit.

what else? i haven't eaten anything yet even if it is 12,30 pm but i was so busy since i woke up. i did some cleaning around the house, i did my exercises and running, i drank almost 1 liter of water.

but in some minutes i will go to boil some potatoes with some green salad (not boiled, of course) and who knows what else... its only Monday today so who knows what this week will bring?!...i hope only for good news, for strength to fight back my weight and to resist to all challenges.

Amen!

14th day of 56. 72 kilos

hello everyone. today is Sunday, it's raining a lot outside but inside my heart is sunny :)

i am in my bed with my husband watching tennis match, I hope Romania beats Ukraine and Hanescu wins the game.

My husband bought me some flowers and a hypo (toy) with a big belly. Soon I will add a picture, it is so handsome and funny with its big head and belly :)

What else?

Today I have the right to eat all the things I can eat, so I ate some meat, rice with carrots and some watermelon.

That's all I did today. Not many things I will do lately so I kiss you and I pray that everyone is optimistic and positive like me.

13th day of 56

hello to you all bloggers or readers. Today it's saturday so I woke up planning to do some cleaning around the house, in the car. I already had my breakfast - fruits salad - because today I eat fruits, my husband surprised me by buying at 8 in the morning a mellon, which he knows I love :)

what else? 72 kilos, positive and optimistic about my real chance to lose weight, reading my best friend's book (that she borrowed to me) about raising a baby, so my life is quite normal and well.

Bye for now. I hope you all have healthy lives and love to share and receive from others.

72 kilos. 12th day of 56. 100 views :)

hello, bloggers or not. today I am extremely happy for many reasons.

First of all is that I lost another kilos, so in 12 days I lost 3 kilos which is great, really...

Second of all is that I did a heart check-up (EKG) and is like to a normal person :), which is also very great as I know myself with a tachycardia, so I feel like even my body is fulfilling my dreams...

And third of all today I have fish and sea fruits so I will eat shrimps (I adore them LOL)...

What else? I am moving a lot, I'm walking a lot, I am doing my exercises as usual and I eat healthy.

Kisses.

11th day

72 kilos...yupiii...

Today I ate milk and cheese. And of course, a little bread with it because I have an ulcer that really makes me go crazy when I drink milk.

I borrowed my first book about giving birth to a child from my best friend, Elena, to whom I say HELLO and I thank for the book. :))

What else? No news, I am just me today. Happy and optimistic :)

P.S.: I programmed my first meeting with my gynecologist on 14th may at 12, I am looking forward to meet her, to ask her all my question about pregnancy. God, I feel so close to fulfill my dream of becoming a mum. A very happy one :)

10th day of 56...

good mornin' ever'one. how u been? :)

it's 10 am and I just woke up, I overslept, probably because of the sickness I had yesterday. My stomach killed me of pain even if I took a medicine..whatever. Now I am better, let's be optimistic about this new day.

73 kilos today and I am glad to have a weight that it is stable, because in general I lose almost 4 kilos in the first week and then I don't have many results. So losing 1 kilo in a week it is a good sign, in fact.:)

Well, now I am about to do my sport, cook some pasta in water and salt and that is all. Kisses.

9th day

73 kilos today...

Proud not to diet too severe, I wake up drinking water (which is already a biiiiigggg improvement) and I exercise everyday in my own way.

Today I have to do sport later on because I have to leave out of the house for a while, but it's so strange for me that I think of sport a lot. Before...:))

Everyday I succeed in doing more and more exercises, more and more difficult, and I am almost crying of happiness. It's a huge change for me as a person, first of all. And I know that this time I will stay this way because the finality is a CHILD, Rebeccah-Marie, that we want to conceive in June this year. God, help me!

Bless ya everyone.

P.S.: I created a facebook account called

iubesc mancarea sanatoasa. Si pe Ghe. MENCINICOPSCHI

8th day - 2nd week

hello, everyone. today is a new start because its a new week, yuppiiii...

i have just done my exercises that I do almost everyday when I wake up and today I did them even harder and concentrated. I have a powerful reason. Lost 2 kilos in one week so I am very happy.

NOW I AM 73 KILOS...

My dream becomes a little closer to real. Yesterday I invited my husband to a walk but it became a journey LOL as we walked for 3 hours. We were both finished by the "sport-time" LOL. And because of the sun, we were red as a tomato :))

Today I eat vegetables. Maybe a green salad with tomatoes, potatoes and bread, as I have ulcer so imagine. But i already drank 1 litre of water and its only 12.

If I will have time I will write some more today. If not...well, if I am not exercising or walking outside, I wish you a lovely day !

5th day

yesterday I haven't found the time to write at all but anyway, no big news....still 74 kilos, that's why I decided to go back to a diet given to me by my doctor and then I will return to healthy life. i know that with this diet I will lose around 7 kilos in 3 weeks so I need results because my brain is already getting depressed and I hate when he is doing that to me :)

so today I will eat fish and only fish. water at least 2 litres...and nothing else.

kisses.

3rd day

yesterday things got bad because I had muscular fever and I just couldn't move as I wanted. So I kinda rest and I turned off my pc and all stuff...

Today I started by cheating as I ate some chocolate. My mistake I left home without eating something to have my stomach full so the result will be more exercises today and less food.

In the afternoon I have to go to an anniversary but I will try not to cheat again. I will ask for lots of water and I will say I have eaten at home. I am so sorry for eating that piece of chocolate.

p.s.: 74 kilos today too...:(

2nd day (first half) :))

I woke up thinking to my sport program already and I did what I wanted. I almost succeeded in doing Cindy' and Radu' s all sport-tape and I am quite happy.

I have still 74 kilos, for 2 days but I am not scared of that. I eat healthy and I do sport everyday. That what really matters. My body will soon woke up too and will consume fat resources :))

Please...:)

Now I am preparing to eat some milk and cereals then it's time to think what to cook for my husband and I. Some turkey or goose with broccoli, mushrooms, tomatoes...I don't know yet. Time will tell :)

first day, 56 more to go

today i woke up with sport in my mind and diet in my stomach...i did some running for 15 minutes because the first day is the hardest and I don't want to be too stressed already.

i ate some yogurt, a banana, broccoli and mushrooms :) it was a lovely meal :))

well, right now i am already thinking to tomorrow :)

p.s.: Thank God for strength today and hope He will be with me tomorrow too...

57 days to losing weight

hello. Saturday I started my own diet. I will try to lose between 5-10 kilos till my birthday, that's is 21st of June. Now I am veeeery fat. Saturday I had 75 kg, today I have 74 kg...

This is a very important battle for me, I am doing it like never before. I want to be a little healthier and not a little slimmer. It's a huge difference my approach this time. Tomorrow all my fitness "instruments" I have in the living-room will wake up from almost-an-year sleep :) and they will have the bad luck to be turned on :)

Of course, I have a diet too. Not restrictive like other times when I started in force, but lost all my senses in 3 weeks. Now it's a small-portion diet combined with non-fat groceries, yogurt and water. Lots.

Well, stay tuned as I will write everyday about my battle. God help me !

stay away...I make people suffer...

today I will do a list with my defects as I see the tendencies to have those reveal by friends:

- selfish

- arrogant

- bulimic

- narcissist

- lazy

- mean

- and many moooooore...

dear world

dear world,

today I saw "Dear John" movie that really impressed me. It's about love, war, strong feelings. About life. Do we know when our life is going to change? Do we have the chance to say NO to bad things in our life? Do we want to say NO to things that are meant to be? Oh, he** no...We don't. So why when we have the chance to live our life in happiness and joy we choose different?

War is a way of living your fear. There is no need of war in Afghanistan or Irak to live it. Some people have their own war back home. Some people don't even bother to fight back, some others choose to fight even if there is no war out there. Everywhere I look there is a war. In our souls, in our every-day struggle to succeed...Love is war. Sometimes you are in peace with your mate, sometimes you wished you never met him/her. We are so desperate to win our war that we no longer search for peace.

People fight for pleasure of fighting. Couples fight for the pleasure of getting back together, others fight at work for the pleasure to win a bonus, others...well, others fight for their lives.

Do we ever fight for goodness? Do we ever succeed in ending a world-wide war? Do we ever love each other so much that we can put our hand on our hearts and swear NEVER to fight for bad?

Maybe I am senseless. But today I choose not to fight... I maintain my spirit cool and calm. I want to believe you will choose to bare your soul to fight today. Good and positive energy helps you and all the world.

Can we be positive today?

Please...

letter to my broken-heart

today I will tell a story, my story...even if everyone will blame me for telling my personal stuff through a blog, but I can handle it.

my sister and I were always a very hard "couple", we love each other very much, but we were never alike. I was always very available for others, and what I want to say by that is I felt well when others came to me to reveal something, when they had problems and needed a shoulder. I live my life by helping others. At least I'd love to think that...

my sister had always been the celebrity in our house, that's how I discovered I loved to stay in the shadow. She always had concerts, always a glamorous life and so many friends. but still I confess I loved more my life, stable and hidden of others.

now, we are both adults, living in Romania and France, I am married, she lives in Paris, we see each other one time at 3-4 years only because we never synchronize our schedule. I think about her every moment of my life because she is alone in there...

...but lately we fought for a stupid thing. And now, we don'speak anymore and I feel like my whole world turned upside down and I can't breath.

celebrity is not important for me, I make a big mistake by believing for others is the same. My life is a "DO NOT DISTURB " sign but I don't expect people surrounding me to live like me. I prefer being emphatic than selfish, even if the world we live in presses us to be different than we are naturally. :(

My sis' is one of the most important persons in my life, but her fame is too hard to handle...:(

My life is not the same without her voice, without her calls...

today I said a story...a sad and true one...

P.S.: Happy birthday to one of my best friend (I only have 2 bestfriends), Mihaela, I hope God will give you health, strenght and courage to fulfill all ur dreams. Kisses and hugs.

sun-day

aşa cum am promis şi am zis că n-o să mă ţin de promisiune (lol), nu am mai scris de câteva zile. nu că nu s-ar fi întâmplat nimic important între timp, dar de fiecare dată când m-am apucat, m-a cuprins aşa o lene...:) glumesc...

ieri, sâmbătă, mi-am petrecut-o cu soţul meu, firesc, normal şi logic...astăzi, situaţia se repetă. oricum, poate că aparent nu se întâmplă nimic special în vieţile noastre, dar cred că de fapt exact această normalitate ar trebui să ne bucure. dacă par uşor logoreică şi fără sens, să ştiţi că vina îi aparţine acestui minunat vin roşu, pur românesc. EL E VINOVAT! Bineînţeles că n-o să îmi asum eu vina pentru tendinţa destul de apăsătoare de a tasta mult si senseless, cum ar zice americanii :))

o să revin mai târziu că acum sunt sub efectul duşmanului :)

new friend

hello, everyone. Today is a new day in everything...

I have just watched "Julie and Julia", an exceptional movie about goals, blogging and cooking :) it inspired me to write something tonite. I am very modest in this. I had so many diaries but never lived to tell I did an awesome job :) I find myself in a spirit of writing nothing important for others, but for my soul.

I propose myself to write everyday here, maybe it will be the opportunity to understand myself better because sometimes I don't know who's in front of the mirror. Wow, it sounded like a melody. Is my life a sad song? Hey, what idea is this? Hey, who are you writing in my blog? :)) I forgot to express myself...

Anyway I am usually a normal human-being, but right now I am laughing and crying in the same time. It is so strange for me to write my own feelings..

Maybe this is not after all a good idea, but who knows? maybe it is, after all... do you find a meaning in what I say? I don't...yet...Hey, I am an ambivalent person. Not my fault, but my astrological's sign :)

Well, this is my first try. I know tomorrow I will laugh...very much about today's :)

KH

new day

hello everyone. my first day as a blogger and I am so shy about it. I just saw "Julie and Julia" the movie and I got so into writing something. I had the idea of creating a blog, I hope I will have constancy in that :) enough for now.